Be Still And Know That I Am God!

Lately, I've been struggling with my depression again. I really don't have a clue what triggers it or how to make it go away, but I'm trying to figure those things out. But I run to God, He heals the hurt. I really don't understand why I become sad, it's not like my life is terribly depressing. I have amazing friends, amazing plans laid out for me, dreams, aspirations, I'm always on the go, I laugh constantly and attempt to make others laugh. I live a wonderful beautiful life. I just turned 19 and I have dreams so big that the world can't handle me! So why am I so sad?? Satan gets to me. He makes me believe I'm so ugly that no one would ever want me, that I will be rejected by everyone and eventually my friends and family won't want to be around me. That my dad will never get out, that things won't ever be good, and that I'll forever spend my life alone in the dark. HA!!! Sometimes I do think I'm an idiot for believing those things. God told me He would never leave me nor forsake me. That He has plans for me, BIG plans! Plans so big and wonderful that I can't even begin to fathom. That I won't be harmed but I will live in Him a wonderful life! I have no reason to cry. My God holds me! One of my all-time favorite verses are John 16:33 "For in this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world!" How could you not feel hopeful after reading that? Our God is not a God that stands on the sidelines and says "You can do it!" as we run by Him. NO! He is a marvelous God that not only runs with us, but runs in front of us!! He went before and He knows the path that we are taking, He took the same path and His was much worse than ours! He was brutally beaten and tortured, laughed at and mocked, so don't ever think for a second that you are the only one who has felt pain. And not only did He go through all of that, but it was us who did those things to Him. We hung Him up on that cross and watched as blood poured down his face! And He still loves us! Can I get a virtual hallelujah?? What an amazing God we serve!! :) I don't have a clue what I'm doing with my life. I just now declared a major with not a single clue as to what profession I will go into, what to do with this degree, and with absolutely no income with this degree, but if God wants me there then who am I to say no? I don't even really have a choice, do I? ;) But that is perfectly fine with me, I trust God with my income, with my profession, and with my ministry. He will work everything out. And shame on me that I forget that sometimes. That I don't trust that the God who parted a sea, who raised the dead, and healed the blind, could handle my life! That is dumb of me, really dumb, for real! So, I wonder what God is going to do with me!? Maybe a christian comedian, maybe a missionary, maybe evangelism, maybe a youth minister. Who knows?!? But I think there is one thing we ALL know to be true, I am HORRIBLE with words!! So whatever He calls me to do, pray for me! Haha! I know everything will all work out! I know He is God! :)